Gourmet Veggie Mama

Remember that time…

… I had a blog?

Yeah.

What happened? I went back to work, and part-time quickly turned into full-time, and full-time turned into all-consuming. I am experienced enough to know that with a start-up, it often does, and as the parent — and until very recently, the stay-at-home parent — of two very young children, I confess that I’m pretty conflicted about it. But, I love the work, and I love the company. I wouldn’t change a thing.

Except. In the midst of getting into my groove as a working mom, I seem to have lost my way as to pretty much everything else other than working and being a mom.

It’s nearly impossible to fit in exercise (although, YES, I certainly could make it work by sleeping less, but that is an unappealing proposition at the moment.

A back injury has made running complicated since last summer, and with work (and wanting to spend every free moment with my family), it has fallen by the wayside. I’ve gone for 2- or 3-mile jaunts here and there on the weekends with the family,* but nothing more serious. When I attempted to go on the 10-mile Moontower Run a couple of Fridays ago, I paid dearly for it — I could hardly walk for a few days after due to aggravating my back injury. I’m now in intensive physical therapy trying to get the injury repaired once and for all — this is for the birds!

*Now that Nora rides her bike, there no real need for the double stroller!

To complicate matters, eating healthily is a struggle, too. Due to my working hours and commute, I’m able to spend the mornings with the kiddos, but I’m rarely able to make it home by dinnertime, especially since Amelia vocally prefers to eat around 5:30. As a consequence, dinner has largely become a Daddy Project.** I basically haven’t cooked anything much more complicated than pancakes for months.*** Sometimes I skip dinner. Sometimes dinner is something from the microwave. It’s rarely up to the standards I had just a few months ago. Hell, I hardly ever have the inspiration to make a cocktail after a long day.

**Or one for the nanny, since he has been out of town a lot recently. Cue Extreme Mom Guilt.

***Actually, that’s not quite true; I did manage to produce a lovely vegetarian cassoulet a couple weeks ago, but it was over two days or so, and it was a pretty light time at work.

I need to do better. I have to get over the end-of-week exhaustion and start planning and prepping meals for the week. I need to drag out the crock pot again and dust off old recipes. I need to rely on others, but not entirely. I need to be involved in my family’s nutrition. I need to because it’s a part of who I am — and who I became in creating this blog.

So, this is my vow — I will get healthy again. I have obstacles to overcome, and things won’t always be ideal, but need to make a change. I’ll write about it here when I can, if you’re interested. Perhaps some new, make-ahead, crock pot or super-quick recipes will be in the works? Or chronicles on how we make it all work through (hopefull diligent) planning and prep work? Both, I hope. And I hope you’ll join me for the ride.

tl;dr: Being a working mom is hard. But, I need to stop just making it through the day and start carving out time for ME. Not just to relax, but to exercise and eat well. I have to do this for myself, and for my family. I’ll be writing about it here when I can.

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5 Thoughts on “Remember that time…

  1. I’ve missed you an your cocktails and writing but it is understandable why. I hope that you are able to find some balance and time for self care whether it be a run or a run on baking. Keep up the good work, mama!
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  2. Hey Lauren!
    I’m glad you’re back, but totally understand the radio-silence. It takes a while to get back in the swing of things juggling work, babies, time for yourself, etc. I’m sure you’ll figure out a routine that works for you soon.
    I’ve been meaning to let you know that I’ve been making a LOT of your recipes lately – we’ve implemented Meatless Monday this year, so your blog has been a great inspiration for vegetarian ideas – most have been pretty quick and easy, and everything we’ve tried so far has been DELICIOUS! I’ve usually had to supplement the kids’ plates with something carbilicious and a side of plain veggies, but I think they’ve at least tried one bite of whatever I’ve made, which is a step in the right direction, right? It’s been a great way to break out of our comfort zone, so thanks!
    Glad that you’re loving work, sorry to hear about your back, big hugs to you & the family…

    Cheers, Emma

  3. I am SO GLAD to hear you are setting intentions to carve out time for yourself!! I feel your struggle with food and me time since I started grad school. It is just plain hard. I send lots of love as you continue to navigate your path!

  4. I’m glad to see you blogging again. I work 4 days, just one kid and I feel busy all the time so I can only imagine what you are going through. When kids are young it’s just tough. No way to sugar coat it. Hang in there. Maybe Jasper and I can hook up with you at Brushy Creek sometime. Miss you!

  5. Glad to see you back at the blog and totally understand the pull of the full-time work. It’s a challenge but one that women have to nurture each other through. Keep your eye on the me time.
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